Let’s Bloom Together

I feel so strange lately. Sometimes I woke up feeling like I could conquer the world, then the other times I thought the world would be better off without me in it.

Sometimes I have too much energy overflowing in my vein, and luckily I could finished some important tasks in office. But, the other times I felt empty and just wanna lay down and stared blankly at my ceiling.

Sometimes I felt it was really nice to be alive and well, and it gave off some positive vibes to other people too. But, the other times all I have was this big bad black negative balls inside my mind, and I became rather rude to people around me.

At the end of the day, I keep wondering, “Why did I do that? What the heck is wrong with me? It would be better if I just shut my mouth at that time. Why should I ever say that?”

You know, those things like we’ve said one second ago and then regret it in the next second. In my case, I’d be drownimg myself in self-blaming.

Well, maybe I’m just an overthinker. But, it’s really hard to change it when it became your daily routine.

You know, they said, “Old habits die hard.” So maybe I had to picked up a new habit to change my life cycle.

April has come to an end. It’s blooming season. Let’s bloom together.

Credit : pics from https://www.wallpapertip.com/wdown/wibRow_orange-tumblr-aesthetic-orange-aesthetic/

2021, here I come

No matter how small it was, let’s celebrate our accomplishment in 2020.

Twenty twenty had been tough

It took a lot of things

Yet also gave so many lessons

It’s okay if all you did in 2020 was breathing

At least you survive

Now, another year has come

Another challenging year

It might not gonna get easier

But, if we can made it through 2020

We can conquer 2021 as well

2021, here I come.

Home Sweet Home – Eugi’s Weekly Prompt

“Home is the place where someone is thinking about you.” – Jiraiya (Naruto, 1999)

Should be a safe haven
Should be a place to feel reassured
Should be a comfort zone

However

Mine is a superficial one
Mine is a broken one
Mine is a war zone

Maybe

That's why I'm feeling strayed
That's why I'm yearning desperately
That's why I'm searching hopelessly

For my kind of 'Home Sweet Home'.

In response to Eugi’s weekly prompt at https://amanpan.com/2020/09/07/eugis-weekly-prompt-home-sweet-home-september-7-2020/

Picture from https://www.lovethispic.com/image/134168/fairy-pumpkin-house

Love Like A Tree – Eugi’s Weekly Prompt

In response to Eugi’s weekly prompt, I’m gonna write a piece about tree once again.

In the previous post, I viewed myself as the tree itself, meanwhile I’ll write about how love should be like a tree.

This piece was inspired by the song ‘Never Break‘ by John Legend.

You can check out my previous post here.

Enjoy!

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Love Like A Tree

Rooted in one place

For eternity

As its grow higher

And higher

The wind’s blow

Will become stronger

Thunder and storm

Will be more frightening

Yet it will never break

For its foundation was solid

Built on the ground

Nourished with compassion

Nurture with gentle care

Thus the love

Will sprout formidably

Wish of a Tree

I’m gonna submit a piece for another picture prompt held by Glen.

For these past weeks, I was unable to write a proper post, not even one. And it frustrates me even more because I have so many ideas in my head, yet I couldn’t pour it out appropriately.

Just like the tree on the picture below, it felt like I was chained down and trapped inside an infinite abyss.

Thank you, Glen. This wonderful picture truly evokes my spirit back.

So, this is the post for the last day of August. I hope I could write more in September.

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Picture by Lynn

Wish of a Tree

I dreamt of reaching the sky

Yearned for a pair of wings

Wished to fly freely

Like those birds

Nested on my branches

Sadly, I was made to be grounded

My roots run deeply in the soil

 

I dreamt of reaching the sky

Wondered how it feels like to touch the stars

I heard that the world is vast and beyond

How does it feel to liberally roaming around?

What a pity!

I couldn’t even walk on earth

For my legs have been chained down by mother nature

When the Signal Went Off

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Photo taken by me.

When the signal went off, of course I’m upset. Being in quarantine for months, I’ve became quite an internet addict. I can’t go on a day without internet connection.

When the signal went off, I thought I’m going nuts. I can’t upload an instagram story or update a tweet. Can’t even open my facebook account or simply chatting with my online friends. Let alone fangirling on V live or read webtoons.

When the signal went off, I might really gonna be crazy. I know that humans are social creatures, but I kinda forgot how to interact ‘real’ people.

When the signal went off, maybe it’s a sign. I should put my phone away for a moment and start socialize in real life.

 

 

P.S: V Live, sometimes referred to as V App, is a South Korean live video streaming service that allows celebrities based in the country to broadcast live videos on the internet and live chat with fans. Streaming is available online or on Android and iOS mobile devices, with replays formerly available on PC. Source:Wikipedia

 

 

NOISE

There are too many voices

Overlapping in my head

Trying to control my life

I wish I could shut them down

Thought that I could take over my own mind

Yet made me realize

I’m nothing without them

Maybe I shouldn’t try to cut them off

Maybe I shouldn’t try to find a way to make them quite

Maybe I should just let them be

Maybe I should try to live with them

Then

Maybe I could find myself again

 

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Illustration by Drawlab19 via freepik.

Sun Kisses the Sea

Today, I’m gonna submit a response to a picture prompt held by Glen.

“The creative goal for all of us is “what does the picture evoke in you; what emotion; feeling; memory or whatever it may be – what does it arouse in you and to share it that with others.”

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Photo by LynnMckPhotography

When I first saw this picture, it took me to a few years back (I forgot the exact year 😅). I was in college, went on a trip to a small island named Gili Labak with a few friends from my church community.

We went there by small boat dawn and were taking some good pictures of sunrise. Sadly, I lost my phone and all the pictures. 😭

It was very beautiful island and really small. It only took approximately 30 minutes to walk around the whole island.

Here’s a picture of Gili Labak island.

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Picture from TempatAsik

 

I also have a short piece I wrote based on Lynn’s picture.

Sun Kisses the Sea

Sun kisses the sea

Unfolds the ethereal

Yellowish beam

Shiny gold

Rays upon the water

Illuminates the shallow

 

As the ship sails

To the horizon

The smells of the salty air

Soothes the tense nerves