I feel so strange lately. Sometimes I woke up feeling like I could conquer the world, then the other times I thought the world would be better off without me in it.
Sometimes I have too much energy overflowing in my vein, and luckily I could finished some important tasks in office. But, the other times I felt empty and just wanna lay down and stared blankly at my ceiling.
Sometimes I felt it was really nice to be alive and well, and it gave off some positive vibes to other people too. But, the other times all I have was this big bad black negative balls inside my mind, and I became rather rude to people around me.
At the end of the day, I keep wondering, “Why did I do that? What the heck is wrong with me? It would be better if I just shut my mouth at that time. Why should I ever say that?”
You know, those things like we’ve said one second ago and then regret it in the next second. In my case, I’d be drownimg myself in self-blaming.
Well, maybe I’m just an overthinker. But, it’s really hard to change it when it became your daily routine.
You know, they said, “Old habits die hard.” So maybe I had to picked up a new habit to change my life cycle.
April has come to an end. It’s blooming season. Let’s bloom together.