new battleground

Picture taken by me
everyday there’s a new battleground 
in the house, forced yourself to get off of the bed

then in the office, another challenging day to work as a team with your co-worker

you try to fit in as a good employee
then you might take a break in a cozy café or simply hanging out with some colleagues

then you have to go back to your home with your head still in a warfare
you arrived just to find that your room is as messy as your brain cells
you wanna rest your body for a moment yet your mind still on fire

then all you can do is just laying there, staring up at the blank ceiling of your room
wondering when will the sun rises up again and you’ll repeat the same monotonous routines

there’s no real space to hide from your own thoughts
‘cause the battle took no time to rest inside you

you fought with all your might and still lose to the demons
it shatters you and eating you up
drains your blood and bones

but still, they say, “it’ll get better, somehow. just hang in there for a bit longer.”

What is Blogging for You?

Tanya is the host for blogging insight.

This time, she gave us an equation of blogging.

To blog =

To share 

To connect 

To create 

To inspire

Personally, I started blogging to share my feelings, unspoken late night thoughts or just some random events around me. I made it as my online diary and I could share my inner thoughts or discover myself through blogging.

There are many other social media where we can share our daily life. I might share a fancy picture of me on Instagram and got many likes and comments from people I know in real life. Or tweet some quotes on twitter. Or post a status on facebook. Those are things that I’d share with people I’ve known or at least met personally.

But, for me blogging is different. I’ve shared some pictures of me, so I’m not really make things private here. It’s just, sometimes there are things that I thought the people I know wouldn’t understand and it’ll better to share with strangers. At least I could take off the things that tighten my chest. And even though English is not my mother language and sometimes wrote post in broken English, I come across really nice bloggers who inspired me to explore more of blogging.

I hope someday, what I post on my blog could inspired other people too.


Let’s Bloom Together

I feel so strange lately. Sometimes I woke up feeling like I could conquer the world, then the other times I thought the world would be better off without me in it.

Sometimes I have too much energy overflowing in my vein, and luckily I could finished some important tasks in office. But, the other times I felt empty and just wanna lay down and stared blankly at my ceiling.

Sometimes I felt it was really nice to be alive and well, and it gave off some positive vibes to other people too. But, the other times all I have was this big bad black negative balls inside my mind, and I became rather rude to people around me.

At the end of the day, I keep wondering, “Why did I do that? What the heck is wrong with me? It would be better if I just shut my mouth at that time. Why should I ever say that?”

You know, those things like we’ve said one second ago and then regret it in the next second. In my case, I’d be drownimg myself in self-blaming.

Well, maybe I’m just an overthinker. But, it’s really hard to change it when it became your daily routine.

You know, they said, “Old habits die hard.” So maybe I had to picked up a new habit to change my life cycle.

April has come to an end. It’s blooming season. Let’s bloom together.

Credit : pics from

When the Signal Went Off

Photo taken by me.

When the signal went off, of course I’m upset. Being in quarantine for months, I’ve became quite an internet addict. I can’t go on a day without internet connection.

When the signal went off, I thought I’m going nuts. I can’t upload an instagram story or update a tweet. Can’t even open my facebook account or simply chatting with my online friends. Let alone fangirling on V live or read webtoons.

When the signal went off, I might really gonna be crazy. I know that humans are social creatures, but I kinda forgot how to interact ‘real’ people.

When the signal went off, maybe it’s a sign. I should put my phone away for a moment and start socialize in real life.



P.S: V Live, sometimes referred to as V App, is a South Korean live video streaming service that allows celebrities based in the country to broadcast live videos on the internet and live chat with fans. Streaming is available online or on Android and iOS mobile devices, with replays formerly available on PC. Source:Wikipedia



Left as a “LEGEND”

I know it’s been 2 weeks since the last episode aired. But I still want to say my goodbye for him. I can’t believe this story has finally ended. I found it was extremely hard to write this with so many emotions mixed up ( I’m crying while writing this,  believe it!) 

Well, happy reading 😅

You came as a knucklehead, You left as a legend”



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Kungfu Panda 3

If You only do what you can, You will never be more than you are now – Shifu



Two days ago, I watched Kung-fu Panda 3 movie in a theater near my boarding house. But, let me tell you this, I found something rarely happens and really amazed me, before I do the review.

There was a family ( a big one ), since it was a family movie i guess, they brought 4 little cute girls to watch the movie together. And they took the seats beside me. Usually, i don’t like to see movie with children. Let’s be honest, they’re all so loud and noisy, rite? It’s not only me that feel that way, aren’t I? C’mon, just admit it. #ignoreit

Suddenly, one of the little girls said “Mom, let me pray first, yea.”

“Yes, sweetheart. Sure.” replied her mom. Then she prayed

At first, I thought the little girl want to pray before eat, but then one of the adults laughed and said “Hey brother, you should learn from your daughter, although we just watching movie she pray for it. I think she’s doing the right thing. To pray before watching, so maybe we can have the wisdom to learn something from the movie, rite?”

And they all laughed together. I wanted to laugh aloud too. Really. It was the way your body reacted when you found something funny. But, then I look at the little girl and found her still praying. Somehow, I was speechless. She still praying despite being laugh or rather mocked by her family like “Please, who ever prays before watch a movie?”. Of course nobody. Or so I thought. In this rotten world, here she is, an innocent mind that bother to prays over something that even not for a slight  occurred in any adults mind. But the most amazing part was she didn’t ashamed a bit by doing that. And I thanked God for such a pure soul she has, quietly I prayed that she’ll stay that way.

Okay, enough for the intermezzo. Let’s see the review 😀

Kung Fu Panda 3 is the last movie of the series. It’s about Po (the panda-dragon warrior) who was barely appointed to replaced their teacher. Well, let’s just say he’s done no good with his new job as a teacher.

There’s a new character that being introduced as the old friend of master Oogway who turned into one of the most powerful foe. This new enemy is described as a greedy old man ( or should I say old bull? ) who longed for more and more power of a technique called “Chi”. He used Chi to defeated master Oogway and the other masters of Kung Fu. Even Po’s master and friends except Tiger was defeated by him as well. In order to beat the crap out of this powerful enemy, Po has to learn the Chi. Because he was the one who’s been forecast long before he was born to defeated the new enemy.

However, I found this movie has an interesting plot due to how the main character is told to have difficulty in completing his mission, but he did have the people who helped him succeed. Another great part of this movie is the special effects, especially in the last fight when Po was finally able to master the Chi.

This movie is also different from the rest because it had more concerning to Po’s family background. It’s about his past and its relationship to the present. It’s already mention in the preview movie but not really complete like in this movie. And also the length of the movie is good: not too long but not too short to tell the story.

Over all, in my opinion, this is an epic ending for the series that portrays the new point of view about Kung Fu with the addition of new characters. It was a great movie and worth the time to watch.